At 33 years old I had experienced most things a young single woman would have at my age. I had a good job, plenty of friends, lovely parents, money in the bank, holidays abroad … yet what was happening inside of me I really had no control over.  The only way I can express the feeling of complete emptiness and hardness of my heart is by relating to a massive black hole inside of me which nothing in this world could fill.

During this time one of my close friends passed away from cancer at just 31 years old. Looking back I believe her early death started me thinking about my Heavenly Father.  Where did I stand in His eyes? Did He care about me? Would I go to Heaven or Hell?  What about my soul, was it so black and hard that I would never be able to go Heaven.?All these questions buzzed around in my mind, giving me no peace whatsoever and I continued to be troubled by my sins.  Should I go to Church? Yes that’s it I’ll go to Church but which one? I had not stepped inside a Church for many years.

 The Lord knew that I would never make that step on my own and He started to stir my conscience to look for Him. Soon after things started to happen rapidly (I later found that a friend and my lovely mum where praying for me). Rob my future husband came into my life and because his father was a Christian Minister I began to ask questions. I really wanted to know if the Jesus he spoke of in the Bible would really forgive all the bad things I had done and pardon me. I went to a local church where I lived and as I listened to the sermon about Jesus going to the cross, it was then I realised that He had died for me personally.

I pondered over the next few days all I had heard and I knew that to accept this gift of salvation I needed to ask Jesus into my heart. With this in mind, I went upstairs to the quiet of my bedroom and confessed my sins prayerfully asking my Saviour Jesus for forgiveness. When I woke in the morning, I had a total sense of His presence in my heart – even the people at work noticed a difference!  I was at peace.

A few months after we were saved, Rob and I married and joined a local church where we able to worship with other Christians and serve Him as a couple.

Over 34 years have passed and I am still following my Lord and so thankful to Him for saving my soul. In grief and joy He has been with me and I know that my Saviour will take me to Heaven to be with Him when my time comes.

Finally, I would like to share with you this verse in the Bible.

 Jeremiah 29 v.13

 And you will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart.